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A year ago today… my brother was rushed to the hospital… he was so, so sick… little did we know it would be the worst month of our lives.
i just happened to be 10mins away… when i got a call. It was Mark… my heart stopped. He proceeded to tell me all that was going on with my brother… that lead to him be taken away in an ambulance from their apartment. It was not a great situation at all.
It took us a few hours to figure out which hospital they took him too… when i arrived at his hospital room, Mark caringly told me “He looks much worse than he really is.” I tried to process that… but just staring at my brother, lying there, helpless, hooked up to all these machines, was more than i could take. I started to cry. The scene was very overwhelming. Beaks wasn’t breathing on his own. At first, they told us his lung collapsed… but it turned out that wasn’t it. There was much more going on than i knew. But the jist of it was, he had pneumonia. A few days past… they hooked Beaks up to a bag o’noms on the 16th… he still wasn’t getting any better. On the 17th Beaks started trying to sign words with his hands… we thought maybe he was getting better… but he wasn’t. On the 20th, the Dr asked us if Beaks had any last wishes… because he was probably not going to make it through the weekend. Do you know what happens to one’s mind when being told news such as that? It was the worst thing i’ve ever been told. I never cried so much… so hard in the coming days. I understand that it wasn’t me that was lying on that bed… it wasn’t me who was dying… but in a way… it was. i love my brother like no one else in the world!! And for the Dr to tell me he wouldn’t be there anymore… i slowly felt myself crumbling away. So that weekend… i prayed… we prayed… family, churches… strangers all prayed. And, i believe… that it was God’s grace that saved you! You made it through the weekend!! Friends & family were in and out of your room… praying, trying to stay positive, talking to you, being there for you. On the 23rd, they decided to have trachea surgery on you. They said it would help you more with your breathing… but they botched it up and ended up taking it out a few hours later. I’m sure you’ve always wanted a useless surgery, right? lol. It’s ok though… Beaks ended up getting his breathing tube on the 26th!!! His breathing was sooo much better!! He still had to breathe with the help of a mask.. but amen! We finally heard him speak… i remember him saying he felt like a “mad man” in there… poor Beaks. Well, the month of March finally came around… he was able to start using his phone for texting! lol Beaks also cracked a “Pee-wee/Basement” joke! silly Beaks… he was getting better day by day. They finally moved him to a new floor on 3/8 and he was finally released to go home on the 19th. Amen!
So much more went on during that month… that i will never be able to put into words… every time i think of Beaks and this time… i cry. I’m crying now as i type. It took me a year to even make this video… All i know is that the Lord saved my little brother… which in turn, saved me. I hope Beaks knows how much we all love him… and how much the Lord loves him as well. Beaks is here for a reason… i hope he finds that reason…
~I love you Beaks… with all my fat sisterly heart! Try not to die again.. mmmk?
